Of Drunken Nights

It always starts the same. A little get together with a bunch of friends. We all want a drink because there's a reason to celebrate or a reason to drown our sorrows, or yeah, we just want a drink. We want to catch up with each other because we haven't had the time to stop and talk for a while. We miss the old times, when we used to have late nights and not care about what's gonna happen the next day. So we stop, we talk, and exchange stories, and just have a beer or two.

I'm having a number of nights when I don't exactly remember what happened. All I have is a vague recollection of the fun that happened. Well, I remember parts of the fun. And then, the memories stop coming. I can't think of what happened next. It's a crappy feeling if you know you had the worst night and you have zero recollection of all the stupid things you did. It's scary knowing that you lost control. But knowing that the people you were with wouldn't let you do crazy things is comforting.

And the next morning, I find myself reeling from last night's alcohol. I put my hand on my forehead, as if I'd feel better doing so. I have a hangover. A huge-ass one. And I don't even know what happened. I don't know whether I should laugh or cry because I have this headache. I hate headaches, by the way. And then I try to remember how I got on that bed or whatnot, and I tilt my head sideways to see who's beside me. Sometimes, I'll remember how I got home, and how I got to sleep on my own bed and sleep beside the mess on it. Sometimes, I wake up on a bed that isn't mine beside someone who took care of me the night before. Sometimes, I wake up feeling like crap and feeling like throwing up. Sometimes, I wake up feeling okay and quite happy even if all I have of last night's fun are fragments. Fragments that don't make sense by themselves.

And though I always say that I probably won't get drunk again, there is a distinct possibility that I might be more than a little buzzed the next time. But that's just because I'll be having so much fun with people I actually like being around. ;)