Friday, November 2, 2012

On the verge of...

I like it when I'm with you. I feel like every photograph would come out perfect. And every smile is golden and every moment worth a thousand little words. I see clips of us in an imaginary video camera held by someone we know. We look good together, they say. We look cute together. It has a nice ring to it. I like the sound of that.

These days, when I think of the future, I see you in it. It scares me how much I want you in my life. Sometimes I think you think of it the same way. I have a list of things I wish to do with you. A list I wouldn't want you to see.

Sometimes I am gripped with a certain kind of sadness. A sadness that comes from feeling helpless. There are a lot of things I cannot control, mostly they have everything to do with you. At times like this I feel like my security is snatched away from me. Sometimes I want to cry.

But mostly I am within a veil of happiness. I find myself smiling at times and wonder why. And I wallow in it.

I think we're on the verge of something great. The question now is if we'd both allow ourselves to have that great thing. :)

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