someday

of all the things that heartbreak can leave one with

i was left with the best feeling of all;

that love can happen again, at any point in time

with anyone else, or with you again.

that hope lives within one's heart

it doesn't ever die

even if you've buried it far beneath the surface,

it will sprout arms 

from where you have left it,

that would reach you

that could reach you,

at the oddest of all times.

that no matter how pain

shrouds all the things you have

at that point, 

hope survives.

and it would seep into your life again.
no matter how dark and dank your world feels,
hope will come.

some nights will be cold and lonely,
and you'll cry yourself to sleep.
swallowing sobs so your sister
wouldn't have to know how you hide the pain
just below the surface of your skin.

some nights will be sketchy,
with the smell of alcohol on your breath,
you won't even drink that much,
and the faint picture of a skyline in your memory.
you'll numb the pain for a few gulps,
and then remember him again, and reach for your phone.
only hearing his voice would make it better, you'll say.

some days will be warm, and fuzzy,
and friends would be the highlight of the day.
the pain will take the backseat.
someone will ask about him, yes.
but it wouldn't matter.
some light will shine through your eyes.

some days the pain will be a part of you
that added steel on your backbone,
that added fervor in your heart,
that someday, the pain will become beautiful again.
and you hold your breath just thinking of all the possibilities.