how to be single

learning to be alone when you're used to sharing everything with someone else is hard. suddenly, you have to deal with things by yourself. it isn't about needing someone to be there. it's the thought that someone else wants to know how your day went, or what happened at work, or what dog you saw that morning. it is the good morning texts, midday calls, i-just-ate-lunch messages, getting surprises in your work inbox - these things are suddenly gone. and you're going to have to create alternative routines for yourself.

but so far, i've managed to do things alone. it is different and would take some getting used to. will i have a How To Be Single kind of thing? moving on is such a long, grueling process. i still wonder about the what ifs and maybes. i still think he made the wrong decision. i still can't imagine a different future. but everyday i choose to wake up and face this nightmare, and brave the pain. i may become a better person because of it.