so a little while ago, someone asked me if i'm getting married any time soon. i feel like i have to make a formal announcement of this newfound single status i've grudgingly acquired. so i can actually avoid being asked awkward questions. it's hard to deflect knives when you can't see them coming. what's even more painful is that if we were still together, i would have an answer to that particular question.

i know i can refuse to talk about the whole thing. but i just want to get it out of the way. i have to say, though, that i'm getting tired of telling friends about how and why you left when you did. maybe it's hard for me to talk about because the good things always come to mind when i think of us. i know i had a hand in the whole thing blowing up being the other person involved in the relationship. but i didn't run away and give up like you did. and sometimes i wonder what you tell people about me when they ask you what happened. i suggest giving them a link of my blog if you want to be fair to me. or of course, you can choose to tell your side of this whole thing. you probably won't read this anyway so it's pointless to wonder.

do you even understand how painful it is to choose someone who refuses to choose you? maybe, when it comes to you, it's always going to hurt.